I just hit the 'send' button on the query/five pages submission, and about passed out.
My brother is laughing uproariously in the backgroud--ranting about how the first submission is always rejected.
I'm trying to think of it all as a short story submission. I've just been working on this short story for a couple years, that's all. Right? Right. And it's just one submission. One thing in one space of time. You can't win it if you're not in it. Cowboy up. Suck it up. Move onwards and upwards. Etc. Etc. Etc. Yeesh.
But, hey, I did it!